The Architectural Digest of a Demolition Man

The sailor drowned in a desert of his own making. The good Mormon died of thirst. The millionaire went broke on a beautiful, ugly, and completely fraudulent lie. The husband, that poor, dumb, trusting bastard, he got his goddamn heart slit, from ear to quiet, respectable ear. And the project manager, that clean-shirted, competent, and completely castrated ghost…

Christ. That’s the one I’m here to kill.

You see this pile of costumes? This beautiful, rotten, and completely useless pile of old skins? That’s the man I was. A walking, talking, and completely fraudulent museum of dead gods.

The film-cleaner kid, the bluebird in the cage, the lonely cowboy, the master key, the king of a kingdom of shit… they’re all just different names for the same beautiful, ugly, and completely honest wound.

And the man standing here now, at fifty-seven, holding a one-way ticket to a country that doesn’t know his name?

He’s not a man. He’s a goddamn echo. He’s the quiet, empty, and beautiful space that’s left behind after you’ve finally, finally, burned the whole goddamn house to the ground.

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James O

Born behind a Tommy’s Burgers to a mother I had to divorce at thirteen, just to survive. I was homeless in Los Angeles by sixteen, armed with nothing but a backpack full of rage. I clawed my way out through a crooked high school diploma and a failed stint in the Navy that got me ninety days in the brig and a boot back to the street.

I decided the world wasn't going to give me a damn thing, so I took it. I went from the shipyards to drafting rooms to building my own engineering firms. I learned the game, held my ground against the suits, and became a self-made millionaire with an office in Singapore before I was thirty. I chased the American Dream and, for a while, I caught that bastard by the throat.

Then I did the stupidest thing a man can do: I retired at thirty-five. Thought I could buy peace. I built a fortress of money and success on a yuppie ranch in Oregon, a monument to everything I’d survived. But the cage wasn't to keep the world out; it was to keep me in. And the one person I handed the key to, the one I trusted inside my walls? She turned out to be a ghost, wearing the face of the same damn madness I’d spent my whole life trying to outrun.